i need answers.

i remember our good days, as if it were yesterday. i remember all our memories as if i lived it every single day. i remember so many things i wanna forget. you knocked me down so hard, i cried. your words were completely untrue, yet i still tried. nothing made sense but i didn't give up. you don't understand, our past was so strong it's impossible for me to forget. to this day i still don't know what happend.
in fact, this very second im so confused. you tell me these things, then do another.
nothing connects, the pieces don't fit, some parts are missing.
for you this is probably easy, but for me? you don't even wanna know. i can't believe this is still on my mind. i know it shouldn't but i dont know. so many things remind me about it and it drives me insane. & you're not making it any better.

i'm in a new place.
why can't i give up?
why can't i forget?
this is my chance to start new.
should i feel this way?
wait, how do you feel?
it's the past. it's done. finished.

i was hurt so much, more than ever. i'm beginning to get up again, but somethings preventing me from doing so. but what?
there's always somethings reminding me of before. & it drives me insane.

i still wanna know your side of the story.
your perspective.
your opinion.

get this outta my head ! i can't take it anymore.
the past is eating me alive. but why ?

...i need answers